Take the blue pill

Tuesday

Take the blue pill

Sheshags came down to KL for two days.

I am dried up till next season. It was multiple, triple, and god knows. 2 days in paradise, just lazing with him in bed, while he admired every bit. Funny, yet in my mind. This is the hottest body, close in comparison with Robin. I love when he was constantly couldn’t get his hands of me. Reminds me of… whatever. The way they look at you, could make you want to swallow the red pill and stay in wonderland and see how far down the rabbit hole you’ll be dragged into. It felt good again, to wake up with someone holding you, admiring every bit of you, and couldn’t get enough of you. But I ‘ll opt for the blue pill, to wake up and leave it to that, as if it was just a beautiful dream. Never again, I wanna put myself in that BS.

2 weeks in the row. Funny.. at one point, I thought, how pathetic. Early 08, I wanted poster child 4 cocaine to be my first, and halfway, up until last month I thought, he would be the only one for this year, because I couldn’t see myself with anybody else. And then, after a horrible one…. A string of 2 amazing ones this month. Must be last call at the bar before I hit the holy month. This week.. I should just count blessings, that adding up the count.