In need of reality to pull me to ground

In need of reality to pull me to ground

I don't go to sleep to dream and I have my feet on the ground.

Fiona Apple sang those lovely words in her first album tidal.

Times like this, while I wish for my boyfriend to drive me away from temptation, he seems to be missing in action. Great!

I know I cannot use that as a reason, but there are times, that you wish you see the reason why you decide to be faithful. Faithfulness is not something that can come naturally. So I need you right now!!! So bloody hell, wake up from your dream, have your feet on the ground, and understand the nature of what you need to do to keep someone!

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Temptress is a bitch with play wand

Temptress is a bitch with play wand

I love to exaggerate. I know. It's part of my theatrical play of life. My BS ammo of bullets.

But sometimes, I really do feel there is temptress, somewhere around with a magic wand, and I am her play thing. Every time I plan to do good, she knows the right play to put in motion to tempt me to her way again. This time, she's trying to make me bet bigger. The more I look away, the more she ask me to play.

It is like when you are married, suddenly you become irresistible. Must be the damn bloody temptress! Don't they understand, we are only human, without vices and much we can already succumb to temptation, and now u throw us a bone. Is there no mercy.

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Sore throat..

Sore throat..

I hate being sick. You end up being at home.. sweating every corner of your body. And the drowsy slurring moments.. oh how I can be without.

This time it's worse, my throat got too infected there is actual puss accumulated there. Ugh... Disgusting!
That means.. not much smoking can be done!

Worse part... when your throat is infected, everytime you try to swallow your own saliva feels horrendous, and the docs, they give you big-ass pills to swallow. Its a ploy to make you choke on your pills, and just die...

So, I end up medicating myself, watching entourage season 3 and Brothers Grimm.
I mean seriously, what else can you do than watch whatever on TV or some good TV Series and favourite movies.

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