Before the holy month hits.. and I have to be good!

Saturday

Before the holy month hits.. and I have to be good!

It started, when I got stuck at a lame birthday, which made me feel out of place.

I decided to lie, about what I do for a living. Told the guy I was a pilot, and he bought every bit of it. Down a few shots, and hit the clubs. Had to go through a hit and run case, where I saw “Baldy”. Oh no! I don’t want to see him anywhere around. Doesn’t he go anywhere else? Half way, he started texting where am i? I just replied drunk somewhere. Can’t screw anyone without bumping into them can ya?

Then after looking for the tube glasses, he decided to buy me more drinks. He use to be a friend of a friend, and damn he was adorable. Next thing I know, everything was a blur, and I was making out with one of my girlfriends while pictures start snapping. What’s worst, the horny guy next to me who was trying to get to know another girl friend of mine found out where I worked. He turned out to be the CEO of my biggest account. That sobered me for 3 seconds. All I could say about that nite, is that I am staying off partying in KL for while. Bits and pieces rushed in, and I remember my friend pulling my hair, pushing me against the wall, as he had his hand under my skirt. And I remember, he got pissed when I refuse to give him my number!

Rushed over to the studio, I showered and they drove me to the airport. Surprise, surprise. Classic, I missed my flight. We hung out for 5 hours, while my head was still spinning like a drunken ballerina on the dance floor. It took hell for me to reach there! With my shirt unbuttoned in Kuala Besut, the driver waited in another state, and bringing a bottle of alcohol into Kota Bharu!

I love the serenity and how I felt at ease with tranquility there. Saw a few shooting stars, while an Italian tried to talk to me. All I could think of is, go away, and leave me at peace with the stars. He tried to kiss me and grab me couple of times, and I keep pushing him away. Let me be! In the end, I fell asleep under the stars, until the boys woke me up and told me that they are cleaning up the place. I swore I saw the moon, but they told me I didn’t. (Turned out, I did!!!)

When the next night arrives, I had my sights on the cute bartender, but the Oreo guy had spent the whole night with me.**I thought it wouldn’t be fair. If a girl ever needs to feel amazing, this was her moment. Both guys (random and no connection to one another) sitting on each side, trying hard to impress. Oreos seems more impressive, the way he played it cool. Although he didn’t even try to touch me whereas the cute 20-year old bartender had his hands right on my ass and my waist and they both know what was going on. In short, ended my night, with my panties around my ankle, outside under the stars, sands all over my ass and some lady yelled asking us to be quieter with the Oreo. Till today, I am without a voice. It was so friggin’ hot! The way he worshiped every curve and screwed me like he was trying to break me. We watched the sunset, and I took my leave. Later, we bumped into each other, while he tries to ask for my e-mail and number. It’s too cute. He mentioned skiing over in Switzerland and I just smiled. He leaned over, and I just kiss his cheeks.

Later, I went swimming by myself, as I said goodbye to my little paradise. Hung out with the boys in Kota Bharu, and today I have found the name of that adorable bartender.

I was driving home, when I realized, I’m really f**ked. Wtf?? Its been 3 guys in a month. I guess this is for all the time, I was loyal and turned to waste huh? If sheshag asks again, if I still love PCFC, now, I am ready to say No. I am not, no more. I don’t miss him, only what we were. It wasn’t worth saving. And I’m doing better, cause no matter whatever he said, or whatever he thinks I am, I know I’m nothing like that. I only let this side of me shows, when I am single, and I know I can’t hurt anyone! I am nothing like him.

I know this is out of character. But, I don't want to fall in love, although SheShag, could make me grin all day with his e-mail. I know, I am without commitment, and heck, there's nothing wrong, and I am not hurting anyone with this. They all know, where I stand, and I make sure, that's where it ends. :)

xoxo

Rollo Tomassi

**Oreo’s because when I bought biscuits he was giving me tips saying that is horrible, and when I picked Oreos he said good choice, and bought a pack as well.