smoking a pack a day, drank the whole bottle of cough med and vanilla coke, and still up awake

Thursday

smoking a pack a day, drank the whole bottle of cough med and vanilla coke, and still up awake

Tomorrow is the first day of Ramadhan. I need to wake up in 3 hours time, and start cracking on my 4 new proposal that I have asked my boss to pass over to me and have sahur with the family.

My head is beginning to spin from the cough med. I hate cough med, this is the only way to take it to clear my coughs, down it like a tequila shot, drink lots of coke and smoke, This is the only way I cope.

I saw a Proton Saga just now, I panicked. Why am I still avoiding my ex? I just installed call manager and blacklist on both my n series phone. And he is blacklisted in both my phones. I don’t want to know that he no longer thinks I am the only one for him. Why? Is this normal?

I can never be in love, why bother? Its just hormones and fear of being alone. xoxo Rollo Tomassi