There's a million miles to go to where happiness lives.

Tuesday

There's a million miles to go to where happiness lives.

To some people, there might see me as someone dark, gloomy and depressive. Maybe its just the trend, and the fact that happy shiny people is no longer the in thing in fashion. Look at around you, My Chemical Romance is being a hit among teens, and all of a sudden emocore and emowhatsover is also very much within definitely on the top lists, selling records.

My size 28 auditor is always asking whether I am happy and keep pushing it.. “I just want to make you happy, baby.” Do I look like a walking corpse ? Just because I like songs that its lyrics seems to be a reflection of emotional empathy and heartrending in its vulnerability, doesn’t mean I’m suicidal. To be honest, I’m content with what life has offered, I am not having a grudge against everything that is being pushed at me and screaming.“O dear God! Woe is me.” But all I’m saying is I have better days.. and on certain days, I’m just venting out. I just don’t advertise I’m happy, and when I have a bad day, I want to talk about it. Heck, who wants to know about your perfect life or perfect days. Again, Happy Shiny People are a thing of a past- pale, suicidal and depressed are in. Heck look at TV Shows, there’s more drama than comedy nowadays.

Why am I content with having practically nothing certain in my life? Just be like a kid. Take one day at a time, and be happy with simple gestures. Remember when we were kids, how getting a candy means the world but as you grow up, your candy seems harder to achieve. Things that you want get more complicated and tougher to achieve. You set higher goals, you want it all. You want your dream job that drives you, which pays you a 5 figure salary a month, look like the models in those fashion spread, at the same time cuddle home with the perfect ideal mate and own all the material things that its ads screams “cost you a year’s salary, but will give you the happiness you are craving for and respect that you desire”. How can an adult achieve happiness, when what we want will sacrifice another dream, in other words, “what you want is what you’ll never get”. And heck, I'll stick to what Watai says, " I'm too young to worry".

xoxo

Rollo Tomassi