Wednesday
See Crystal Ball, Breathe Silver Air
Everything comes to an end. Life, marriage, grief, work, love, relationship, happy moments, college days.. everything that counts as an experience would close its curtains on you.
My cousin came over to my place last night and shared my bed. She got married while we were still in studying in University. I can’t recall how old we were then, but it should be at the end of our teens or at early 20’s. Now; she’s 25, unemployed and filing for divorce (contributing to my fear of marriage). We stayed over talking about everything else, work, travel and anything that doesn’t mentioned the word divorce. Life can be overwhelming at times, as long as you keep yourself grounded and busy I guess. Here’s a cliché “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”. No…. what doesn’t kill you will make you fall hard and to keep on falling till you reach precipice
, to a lonely place, where you decide to never get up again. Or you keep on dying till you finally found a better place where you find yourself refusing to wake up. But if you are strong enough, you go to this isolated place and you play pretend in front of others till one day, you believe your own pretense. The façade becomes reality, and soon enough you let it go. I hope she'll get a break and the ochestra would start playing a different tune for her.
As for me, I will not suppress my desire; I will not limit my imagination, for I am 25 and free from anything that can bound me. I can get crushed, and bounce back.. I can be stupid and be forgiven. I can find out that a pebble can cause ripples in pond, and still find that ripples fascinating (thus throw more pebbles in it). I do not regret my life’s choices. I do not regret where I stand, though to some it looks like I have nothing. But to me, I have enough to keep a smile plastered on my face and nothing to hold me back. I don’t weigh this moment with a future of dreams that are no longer there.
, to a lonely place, where you decide to never get up again. Or you keep on dying till you finally found a better place where you find yourself refusing to wake up. But if you are strong enough, you go to this isolated place and you play pretend in front of others till one day, you believe your own pretense. The façade becomes reality, and soon enough you let it go. I hope she'll get a break and the ochestra would start playing a different tune for her.As for me, I will not suppress my desire; I will not limit my imagination, for I am 25 and free from anything that can bound me. I can get crushed, and bounce back.. I can be stupid and be forgiven. I can find out that a pebble can cause ripples in pond, and still find that ripples fascinating (thus throw more pebbles in it). I do not regret my life’s choices. I do not regret where I stand, though to some it looks like I have nothing. But to me, I have enough to keep a smile plastered on my face and nothing to hold me back. I don’t weigh this moment with a future of dreams that are no longer there.
xoxo
Rollo Tomassi
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