Thursday
I watch another re-run and stare at another book on the shelf
He left, I jumped through hoops to keep him, how did I get so wrong... Been jilted, been jilted again.
He has f**ked another girl. He told me about it. I am talking to my cat. Watching PORNHUB. Couldn't even let anybody touch me, without A LOT OF AMOUNT of alcohol.
In his mind, I have f**ked the whole entire population of men.
Truth: He has been the only person I have been this year.
Truth: I told him I did all he accused because I thought it would be easier. Once a person made it up his mind, there is no turning back.
Truth: I am an idiot.
Truth: I am awake on nicotine and caffeine, and having images of him on the stairs screwing the chick.
Truth: I don't want anybody else
FACT: I should move on
Truth: I want to consciously, subconsciously - I lie to myself saying one day he'll know the truth and be back to me.
FACT: Why would I want to be with someone that have screwed so many others and put the blame on me?
FACT: How could I be with someone who claims he loves me so, then screw others TWICE, while we were together.
Truth: I'm just fucking pathetic, wishing his name would appear in my INBOX.
FACT: Once you forget oblivion and ignorance as much as you want is impossible once you know the truth. I could never be with him like before. How could I?
FACT: He will never believe or even realize that I didn't do any that he accused me of. Its a lost cause.
FACT: There are worse things that could happen
He has f**ked another girl. He told me about it. I am talking to my cat. Watching PORNHUB. Couldn't even let anybody touch me, without A LOT OF AMOUNT of alcohol.
In his mind, I have f**ked the whole entire population of men.
Truth: He has been the only person I have been this year.
Truth: I told him I did all he accused because I thought it would be easier. Once a person made it up his mind, there is no turning back.
Truth: I am an idiot.
Truth: I am awake on nicotine and caffeine, and having images of him on the stairs screwing the chick.
Truth: I don't want anybody else
FACT: I should move on
Truth: I want to consciously, subconsciously - I lie to myself saying one day he'll know the truth and be back to me.
FACT: Why would I want to be with someone that have screwed so many others and put the blame on me?
FACT: How could I be with someone who claims he loves me so, then screw others TWICE, while we were together.
Truth: I'm just fucking pathetic, wishing his name would appear in my INBOX.
FACT: Once you forget oblivion and ignorance as much as you want is impossible once you know the truth. I could never be with him like before. How could I?
FACT: He will never believe or even realize that I didn't do any that he accused me of. Its a lost cause.
FACT: There are worse things that could happen
Truth: I miss him
Rollo Tomassi
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